we are thinking of u  / HarryA.K.A TG|Eagle Stuart (Gaming frend )
all of TG| are thinking of you and loved u like a brother we all miss you alot you wore verry cheerfull we will miss you alot mate Close

Remembering you  / Hugh Fidgen (TG)
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Tribute / David Jones (TG Member )
May God be with you this day, and always, may he help you to think of Nick not in sadness, yet in fondness as hard as this may be to do.

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Miss You  / Dad

Dear Nick

 

I cant let this day go by without saying this.

 

I miss you more than words can say, your laugh, your smile and all the other things that made you special.

I miss the way we could talk about anything.

I miss the way you could hear a tune and find the tabs on the pc and next thing you would be playing it.

I miss  the way you would sit at football and know all the players history.

All the things that made you, I miss.

 

It is a year now and not a thing that happened that day has been lost in time, it seems like yesterday.

I felt so helpless, I couldn’t help you. But I so wanted for you to be there well and laughing.

I know that no matter what I did on that day it would have made no difference, you had gone.

 

As the days turn into years the memories will grow stronger and never fade.

Rest assured that Katie Mum & me will grow stronger as well.

 

Please keep a watchful eye on all of us

 

We love you and always will

 

Dad

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It's already been a year  / Michel Epe (Friend)
Time passes so fast. I hope Nick's family is doing well! I wish you all the best in the world.

Nick, I wonder what song you're playing right now on your guitar. I miss you bud, hope you're doing fine.

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... / Rachel James-Bailey (Cousin)

I don't have anything profound to say, I just miss you so much.
x x x x x

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My Life Without You  / Katie (Your Lil Sister )
Nick,

What can I say besides I miss you. You were like my other half ... my big brother. There was only the 2 of us and now there is only me, I dont like being here without you. It upsets me when other people talk about their brothers and sisters, but dont worry because I talk about you, all the time. I always think of you especially when im in the goose sitting at the table we were at on your 21st, I was thinking about the nightwish concert the other day, the last concert you made it to, your favourite band. No words can describe the pride I felt watching you singing along. You wasnt standing next to me but I could still see you, maybe something was telling me to cherish that moment, and Nick I did.
I had a dream about you the other night and I hugged you in the dream, it felt so real and filled me with a sense of tranquility the next day. I could feel your arms around me and I could smell you, I didnt want to wake up, it wasn't long enough Nick.
Well, its a year tomorrow, cant hardly believe it, Im gunna give mum and dad loads of cuddles for you, and just be there for them as much as I can.
You will be proud at how much Im into football now. Everytime West Ham win or score I want to cry because you aint here watching it with me. 
Saturday Night bruv im gunna be in the pub with all our friends drinking turbo shandy's just the way you would want us to be, I will save you a glass, :-(
Im gunna go now Nick, but please dont forget you are always on my mind and forever in my heart.

All My Love Forever Nickers

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1st Anniversary, Remembrance Day  / Frances &. Michael Speakman (Friend of Mum & Dad TCF )

Dear Jackie, Gerry & Nick's lovely sister

We are thinking of you all as Nick's Anniversary is so near, we remember so well  how we felt on the the 1st Anniversary....

We send all our love to you and will say a prayer and light a candle for your precious son Nick tomorrow evening.  Such an emotional day, so many memories, our hearts go out to you.

love...

Frances & Mike xxx

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Hay guys  / Andy T.S. (-)

Hay guys
Know its a hard time for you all, just wana send you some good thoughts. You'll all get there with time he hasnt left you, you just cant see him, 
i want to say more but not sure what.
Love you all

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Borrowed from a compassionate friend  / Jackie (Mum)

Where are you now, my lovely son? 
I hear your voice in the sigh of the wind 
I see your smile in the brightness of the sun 
I know your growth in the shifting seasons 
 
Where are you now, my dear lad? 
I taste the salt of your tears for our loss 
I feel your charisma in the velvet darkness 
And your laughter echoes in my mind 
 
Where are you now, my handsome youngster? 
You were the arrow to my bow 
You shot into my life, and raced ahead 
Impatient to live as much as you might 
 
Where are you now, my beautiful boy? 
You brought such vibrancy and joy 
Your life too short, but so well lived 
You bequeathed us many stories  
 
Where are you now, my strong young man? 
You build my strength in this different life 
Your footsteps follow in my shadow 
And your presence aids my courage 
 
Where are you now, my sweet child? 
I feel your soul beating on in my heart 
I will always hear you when you call 
Death does not separate, after all

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A HUG SENT FROM HEAVEN  / Tracy Abraham (cousin)

When you feel a gentle breeze
Caress you when you sigh
It's a hug sent from Heaven
From a loved one way up high.

If a soft and tender raindrop
Lands upon your nose
They've added a small kiss
As fragile as a rose.

If a song you hear fills you
With a feeling of sweet love
It's a hug sent from Heaven
From someone special up above.

If you awaken in the morning
To a bluebird's chirping song
It's music sent from Heaven
To cheer you all day long.

If tiny little snowflakes
Land upon your face
It's a hug sent from Heaven
Trimmed with Angel lace.

So keep the joy in your heart
If you're lonely my dear friend
Hugs that are sent from Heaven
A broken heart will mend.

 

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A Child Loaned  / Jackie (His Mum )

A Child Loaned

"I'll lend you for a little time
A child of Mine." He said.
"For you to love the while he lives
And mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven year
Or twenty-two or three
But will you, till I call Nick back
Take care of Nick for Me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you
And should Nick's stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories
As solace for your grief.

I cannot promise Nick will stay
Since all from Earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there
I want the child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over
In my search for teacher's true,
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you;
Now will you give Nick all your love,
Nor think the labour vain
Nor hate Me when I come to call
And take Nick back again?

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, They will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
For the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter Nick with tenderness,
We'll love Nick while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for Nick
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And try to understand."

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Surviving... / Shirley Ling Gemma's Mum
My Mum Is A Survivor
             
My Mum is a survivor,
or so I've heard it said ,
But I can hear her crying at night 
when all others are in bed.  

I watch her lay awake at night 
and go to hold her hand.
She doesn't know I'm with her
to help her understand.

But like the sands on the Beach
they never wash away...
I watch over my surviving Mum,
who thinks of me each day.

She wears a smile for others....
a smile of disguise!
But through Heaven's door I see
tears flowing from her eyes.

My Mum tries to cope with death
to keep  my memory alive.
But anyone who knows her knows
it is her way to survive.

I know that doesn't help her...
or ease the burden she bears.
So if you get a chance,go visit her...
and show her that you care.

For no matter what she says...
no matter what she feels...
My surviving Mum has a broken heart
that time won't ever heal

Jackie... this was posted on Gemma's site by another grieving mum.. ..xx



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Oh how we wish YOU were here  / Mum Dad &. Katie
Wish You Were Here Lyrics So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, Running over the same old ground. What have you found? The same old fears. Wish you were here. Close

Say Hello to Heaven...  / Emily (Friend)
This song has always made me cry and in recent weeks it has drifted thru my mind as thoughts of you linger.

Say Hello to Heaven
recorded by Temple of the Dog, lyrics by Chris Cornell.

Please, mother mercy
Take me from this place
And the long winded curses
I keep hearing in my head
Words never listen
And teachers never learn
Now I’m warm from the candle
But I feel too cold to burn
He came from an island
And he died from the street
He hurt so bad like a soul breaking
But he never said nothing to me
So say hello to heaven

New like a baby
Lost like a prayer
The sky was your playground
But the cold ground was your bed
Poor stargazer
She’s got no tears in her eyes
Smooth like whisper
She knows that love heals all wounds with time
Now it seems like too much love
Is never enough, you better seek out
Another road ’cause this one has
Ended abrupt, say hello to heaven

I never wanted
To write these words down for you
With the pages of phrases
Of things we’ll never do
So I blow out the candle, and
I put you to bed
Since you can’t say to me
Now how the dogs broke your bone
There’s just one thing left to be said
Say hello to heaven


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I will remember you...  / Emily Eidson (friend)
Nicholas...

I remember the night we met...
I remember how I watched you sleep on webcam.
I remember how the gesture seemed so sweet.
I remember how peacefull you looked as you slept... and how I had to tear myself away.

I remember hearing your voice over the microphone...
I remember how you loved my accent, and I loved yours.

I remember our long chats on camera and how you always made me laugh.
I remember how you used to sing to me and play me songs on your 'axe.'
I remember you talking to me for hours after stumbling in from the Pubs.
I remember you asking how long till I could come to London for Holiday.
I remember you saying that the pond that seperated us was not that far.

I remember seeing you on oxygen... and how much it made my soul ache.
I remember talking to you about all the tests the doctors were running... and how I prayed you would have a transplant and begin anew.
Then I remember your laugh was silenced.... even though it still rings in my ears.

Nicholas I will never forget you, and the mark you've left on my soul.
Nicholas... I miss you...
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If only  / Andrew Taylor-Smith
Hay nick
Dont Qwite know what to write but here i go,
im not gonna pretend like i know you, just wish i had the chance, from what i have heard about you it sounds like we would have really got on. and just getting to know your family has been a real privalige and a honour.
Listining to them talk about you always makes them smile and laugh, and i hope when i go, i leave half the legacy you have.
As im sure you know i started seeing katie this october, and since then i havent been happyer. i think i make her happy too, i'm happy to say cos i really do cair about her.
Once again, wish i could have known you, but got the next best thing, i got to know your family and im greatfull for that. 
Rest In Peace Nick

Andy   
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Goodbye / Richard Oakley (passer by )

After reading about nick i feel as if i have known him for a long time.What a brave and happy person i see,i only wish i could turn back the clock for nick and his family but sorry i cant.I have been in this situation myself 21 years ago when my first daughter died of meningitus at the young age of 3.My heart is with nicks family as the pain will take time to heal.God bless you all.Goodbye nick and sleep tight.Love you all xxx.Rick.

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Always in My Heart  / Katie (Little Sister )
Nick

     Am just writing this because I cant say everything I need to say in a candle. I just want to say that I miss you so much, a big piece of my heart died with you that morning, a piece of my heart that cant be replaced.
     I miss you calling me names, I miss your cuddles, I miss running away from you when you tried to kiss me if I got you something you really liked for your Birthday or Christmas, But truth be told I would give anything for one of your sloppy kisses on my cheek. 
       I know you'll be waiting for me up there Nick and I cant wait to see you again but I know my place is down here with Mum and Dad (who I couldn't be more proud of.)
   Ive got a new boyfriend who is lovely, he treats me so well, I just wish you could meet him, I know you'd like him, but it breaks my heart more and more because I know you cant. 
  I hate being without you, I hate being on my own, I never wanted to be an only child, but id rather have the short time I had with a brother like you, then a lifetime with a brother who had only half the qualities you had. I will cherish every moment I spent with you always.
  You were a Diamond in this world Nick, and even though your not here you will still shine on in everyone's hearts. The people who's lives you touched are better people for it.

I will always love you, and always miss you

Your Little Sister.

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